Playlist Reflection Part 1

So I just thought of this on the drive back home from Berkeley tonight. I've been meaning to reflect lately. Finals are over and I have time to sit down and put things in perspective before summer hits full speed.

The concept behind this comes from Jay-Z's American Gangster. That album was structured as a linear progression of the life of a drug boss. Imma make a playlist that's a linear progression of my college life.

So here's how its gonna go... Imma write a playlist. Each song was a song that was hot sometime during my college career... At the time that song was hot, it coincidentally really resonated with something I was going through, which ill describe or allude to. The playlist will be in chronological order. So now to take it back to Fall 2006...

1. I Luv It (Young Jeezy)- This song came up big fall of freshman year. I picked this because it was a motivational song that describes my mindset. I was just adjusting to things and was really on point back then. I wish I can be that focused on school now.

"Check ya watch ***** its my time / mind made up, I was on my grind"

2. Make Me Better (Fabolous)- Spring/Summer 2007 was definitely the most dramatic time of my college career and probably my life. These next 3 songs on the playlist are about that time frame. Make Me Better was a song that came out round the same time I was sprung for the first time in college. The concept behind this song is crazy though. At the time, I was like damn... yeah this is how I would want a girl to hold me down.

"The right when I'm wrong, so i never slip / Show me how to move, that's why i never trip"

3. Because of You (Ne-Yo)- Continuing along with the last one. This was me being sprung to the highest degree... I remember talking to her the night before and having that moment when you find out you like each other. The was really my first time experiencing that ever. Next morning, I woke up with a wide ass smile on my face, blasted this song and sang and danced along with it alone in my dorm room. Till then I didn't know humans could be that happy haha.

"I'm so strung out on you... I can barely move, but I like it. And its all because of you... Never get enough... She's the sweetest drug"

4. Go On Girl (Ne-Yo)- This is probably the one song that hit me most in this playlist. That shit was on repeat for like a month. If you heard and vibe'd with this song before, you can guess what I went through. Add that to the fact that around that time, It was finals week and I almost lost my dad to a heart attack. She was literally the only thing keeping me sane, the only thing I was leaning on. Never have and never will I be hurt like that again. Believe that. That shit changed me and I became grown after that summer. It really took me awhile to get over that shit but its cool now. Its just something in the past that makes me who I am now. I thank God for that experience.

No Quote for this one. I'd just copy/paste the whole song.

5. Roc Boys (Jay-Z)- Fall 2007. This was around the time I started kickin it with Marco and Arvin and if you seen the video to this song... Its just nice and classy. I feel like that's how we rolled. Kinda like Jay, Nas and Diddy from the video.

"We the dope boys of the year, drinks is on the house"

More shit to come... this takes longer than expected, its fun for me because im listening and reliving the years. the whole thing probably gonna be 15ish songs deep.

Just Throw It In The Bag!

Throw It In The Bag feat. The-Dream - Fabolous

Summer song! let this final be over so I can chill.... Haaaa, i duno bout a girl who just throw it in the bag freal though.. sound more like a G-digger.

untitled

The end of a dynasty
The memories are history
But the shit we been through will always be
D.O.P.E.
Blow the weed, get in the car and just cruise
Life's a journey, but we roll it hella smooth
Not sayin' that we din't have tribulations
But we always had our backs no matter the situations
And we only started our lives together
even when we all out this bitch we'll be homies forever
Im talking godfathers to my sons
Best man to my wedding
But put that on pause cuz by 35 we probably still be ballin
That was a joke but our friendships is the truth
shit will never be erased
And most definitely won't ever be replaced

Bye Bye Remix- Jay-Z Verse

dug out some stuff from iTunes... This is to the dope era.

Every time the guns goes blast
Another day goes past
I don't miss my dogs
I'm wishing the days could go fast
So I could crash
Close my eyes
Try to go to sleep and bring you back
But I can't bring you back
(Nah can't bring you back)
So I back
Back memories of us
Acting bad
Wish time could freeze
But our time is up
And I promise ya
Imma hold it down
Till it's my time
To leave and I'm ok
I mean
I'm alright, not ok
And it hurts my soul
I won't see your face
But if u truely
Are in a better place
Like what they say
And that's ok
I'll be allright
I've been up all night
Like if I didn't
With my nigga to be living
With the time
Tick-tick-ticking away
So forever I'm forever
I'm in search of yesterday
(Yesterday)
Like a Beattle song
I close my eyes
Repeat the song
Tryna bring us back
To where we belong
Middle of the club When B was on
Adidas on
blowing on stank like Cheech and Chong
Going back and forth between ?? and Dom
So when I meet the don
U Should know
I meet way back
With my dog when I go
So when times says goodbye
Y'all say hello

Give up?

damn, motivation is so difficult right now. i feel like i had a good season but there's no way i can win the championship. I feel like the Celtics without KG... Im on my way to good grades but i cant get to greatness.

It may be too late to turn it around. I guess I should just go out hard though, go on vaca, rebuild and dominate in the fall.