PILIPINO!! PILIPINO ANG LAHI KO!!

Media studies 101 says that there is no such thing as low culture...

this may beg to differ. i dare you tagalog speakers to watch it and not laugh! no diss to Manny but "may pagka-baduy ng kaunti."

I personally am a sucker for cheesy filipino things + im so hyped for the fight that i think this video is DOPE.

I can't help but bust out laughing at the shot with Freddie Roach in the background going along with the chorus!

Quick couple of lines...

please excuse the swagger, i need this to motivate myself right now.


It's 5 am, still on my grind
im calm as can be, no worries on my mind
shit needs to get done
i ain't worried bout that
when shit needs to get done
i take care of that
my heart wont let me fail
like a veteran in the playoffs, I prevail
i go so hard...
the bottom of my eyes are GOYARD
i aint just got eye-bags, i carry luggage
bout to check that shit into flight school
if i was an athlete the league would need to modify the rules
un-guardable
sit your ass down i make your efforts look minor
but now im just talking shit
before i get too into it
imma leave and keeping doing the shit that makes me IT.

Why I Can't Write

So i just figured this out while talking to my roomate... anyways, this is probably BS but it really makes sense to me.

Here's the situation, i have a paper due at 3pm tomorrow. i'm at 3.5/8 pages. i have the worst case of writers block. ive been having it all day. BUT... im not stressed at all. (ok maybe a little) i'm still 100% confident imma get the paper done.

Why? Why do i think everything isn't on code red just yet?? because there is a relationship between the time until a deadline and the speed of writing. since i technically have over 12 hours, im still well within the 1 page per hour time-frame.

basically, im waiting for the inevitable boost of motivation to write... it will come eventually, ill just realize that i'm in deep shit and the words will flow.

I am worried though... I had a paper due yesterday and had to make miracles happen for that one too. ive been recovering a lot... i slept 8 hours last night, napped for 2 hours today... but it might be the case that i have used up all my writing mojo. WHAT IF that writing boost doesn't happen??? WHAT IF the words don't flow???

To be honest, I don't know. working when you arent motivated is the worst thing in the world because only you know how hard you are really trying. externally, you look lazy.

Welcome to Heartbreak...

My PEIS 101 prof said in class... Europeans work to live, Americans live to work. For real though, I can see how this plays out because the track that I'm on is forcing me to operate in that manner. Its like, this is how the game is set up. I if I ain't up on this (car, clothes, salary) level... I ain't shit. So everyone read the rest of this blog listening to the Kanye West song "Welcome to Heartbreak." This song is my favorite from 808s from a lyrical standpoint. I think people overlook this one but lines like these are on the level of All Falls Down from College Dropout:

"My friend showed me pictures of his kids, and all I could show him was pictures of my cribs."

"He said his daughter had a brand new report card, and all i got was a brand new sports car."

"Chased the good life my whole life long, look back on my life now my life gone... Where did I go wrong?"

I mean, to be honest... you have to work to get money and live a good life, that's a given. On that note, I strive to be successful and everyone has a different definition of that. Mine is a house, a good family and good health... Play golf on the weekends, be close to my parents, be able to pay for food on the table and a good education for my kids. Economically speaking that is over 6 figures. If i'm blessed to have extra money to floss a little bit that's fine, ill buy a fast car to drive on the weekends and things of that nature. But my level of happiness isnt gonna be based on my resume and my bank account. More money more problems and I would much rather be able to sleep well at night.

Money and success is addicting though. The fast life is a trap. I hope I have the strength to stay true to myself whatever happens.

And lastly, when i cant laugh and have fun about the life i'm living thats when i know im too stressed and gotta switch it up.

Go Hard

so things are officially going. today was day 1 of probably the most stressful week this semester aside from finals. here's today for me.

Woke up at 9:30ish. studied from 10-11:30. got ready for the day. P4 tabling / Campaigning for Lean 12-2. SLC studyin 2-3. section 3-4. Main Stacks Studying 4-5. Section 5-6. Grab food/SLC studyin 6-8:30. PCN practice 8:30-9:30. Studying at Eshelman Library 9:30-10:30 Quick workout at the RSF 10:30-11:30. Go home. Heat up Coffee, Start cookin food... Study from 12am-12:40 ish... and then round 12:40 i started this blog.

For the rest of the night imma eat some fresh pork adobo, study till 3-4ish, shower, sleep and hopefully wake up, go to class at 11 and take my midterm at 12:30.

I ain't braggin or complaining... I know half the people who read this probly have better work ethic than myself. If anything i'm just writing to myself that keepin up this hard work is what makes me me. People see who i am but its really all this work that allows me to be successful or dope or whatever. there's no secrets. so to everyone reading this... Especially to myself in the future or during the rest of this week, Get on your grind and go get it!

Balance

There's just too much stuff going on right now. To be honest, I should be stressed out trippin about a midterm and a paper due next week while PCN practice will be going on everyday. But I refuse to stress. I just spent a majority of the night playing NBA 2k9. That time probably shouldve been spent studying but it's all good.

I love my life right now because despite the time constraints, my main problem is basically picking between which dope activity to focus my time on. My classes are all chill and interesting so doing school work has never been a painful experience this semester. P4 is cool and something I gladly dedicate my time to. Boxing is always there, I can go and train to keep in shape. Time spent with friends is never a waste. No amount of money will ever turn me 21 and put me back in berkeley. Going home to see family is always a good thing. Being an only son, I am close to my mom and dad and love them to death.

The only other activities I do are sleep and eat... And everyone knows that those are damn good. So despite the high speed I'm travelling, moving a mile a second... I'll push that gas All day cuz if my life right now was a car, Itd be a Ferrari-maybach-lamborghini spaceship.